Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I usually hate forward emails, and attempt to make people stop sending them to me, but this poem I actually found in an email like that. According to the forward, this poem was written by a child, and cancer patient, who eagerly urges people to slow down and really enjoy life, which she will probably not be able to do due to her horrible disease. And to her/him I give credit for this lovely poem. :)

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever 
watched 
kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to 
the 
rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a 
butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the 
fading 
night?

You better slow down.
Don't 
dance so 
fast.
Time is short.
The music 
won't 
last.

Do you run through each day
On 
the 
fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear 
the 
reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie 
in your 
bed
With the next hundred chores 
Running through 
your head?

You'd better 
slow down
Don't dance so 
fast.
Time is 
short.
The music won't 
last.

Ever told your 
child, 
We'll do it 
tomorr ow?
And in your 
haste,
Not see 
his
sorrow?

Ever lost 
touch,
Let a good 
friendship die 
Cause you 
never had time 
To call 
and say,'Hi'

You'd 
better slow down.
Don't dance 
so fast.
Time 
is short.
The music won't 
last.

When you run 
so fast to get somewhere
You 
miss half the fun of getting 
there.
When you worry and hurry 
through your 
day,
It is like an unopened 
gift......
Thrown 
away.

Life is not a 
race.
Do take it 
slower
Hear the 
music

Before the song is 
over.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Life is confusing, I've been waiting
Only to drag myself down
into the pits, of my thoughts, of my broken dreams
Staring at the remains
Trying to remember happiness

My dreams killing me
Devouring my soul from the inside
Taunting me, forcing me to remember
I will never have them
I will never catch them
I will never know what its like
To know happiness
I've made it through
another day....
Work. People. Myself. Life.

Mum is sick, so I had to wait a couple hours
I went on the Aftershock 5 times while waiting
And talked to friends

I had some grapes And some beef jerky
Now I am going to count fuzzy elephants and see if I can
catch some sleep

I am waiting for my lovey dovey friend, by soul mate,
to come see me
It is going to be wondermous
I've missed her soo





Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Oh, what to do, what to do with my life?
In then past week I have managed to get through the:
The last day of school
&
My first day of work.

So, as concerning the last day of school, I was mucho excited for school to be out, as am I now. And I am shamed to say, that miss people, will I not. I have found myself to be somewhat of a recluse, fortunately and unfortunately. But I must seem to contradict myself for, sometimes, I crave people so. And now, for with no support from those of equal level emotionally and maturity-wise shall I say, emotionally, I am immensely drained.

And, as concerning work, I will just say that I made it, and probably not with flying colors. Alright, I'm not thinking I did badly exactly, but my my, it was a bit stressful, if I may say so myself. I find myself very nervous working with other people's money, all the while trying to appease the costumers and keep the change right and make sure that all the procedures are always followed correctly by myself. I pray that I will adjust to the stress, ahh, and that was supposedly a slooow day. I am not looking forward to busy days, not. at. all. Although I think a raise will follow in July and August.

My oh my, please help me keep my head straight, Lord!