Saturday, January 31, 2009

I finished my poem.
I'll post it soon.


Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you 
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far


I need to go to vienna!!

Apparently there are still balls in Vienna.... like dancing balls.
I guess sounding gross is inevitable.... So stop chuckling.
I am totally serious.
Some of my favourite types of books are ones set in the victorian-ish age with balls, and big dresses, chandeliers, and pirates. So romantic.
Don't you think?
I love how everyone learned the steps to the same dances! I wish we did that now, that would be awesome. I'm not sure if they do that there. Probably not. Maybe. I wish.
I'm not sure if they are much like the ones soo long ago, but I must go to one.
To make sure. It sounds amazing either way!!!

smells like what?

i'm blasting "smells like teen spirit" and playing my air guitar with the hot pink flames on it.
when i should be sleeping but now i can't go back to sleep.
my room is attached to the bathroom, and my little brother was taking a bath and woke me up.
not to mention getting up at 5 every flipping morning this week makes it kinda hard to sleep till noon like i want to. :(

I feel stupid and contagious!

Friday, January 30, 2009


I am so gonna fail math!
I wish I was a math geek!!
Algebra is fun sometimes, but I soo suck!
I need to be inspired!

Thursday, January 29, 2009

words & thoughts

sometimes i find it almost impossible to put what i feel in writing.
i've decided what my poem is about, and i am working on it....
i hope hope hope it will turn out.
it makes me want to cry when i think about it all.
you will see when i post the poem.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I wish I had the talent for writing...

Well, today I started public school for my very first time. It was... different.
Too many people for me. Kind of stressful. It's funny... I love the city, all the people & places...but middle school is a lot to handle for me. Ahh I know what you're thinking, I am such a weeny. So stop thinking it!
I do like most of my teachers though, they all seem pretty cool, but you never know. It is my first day so they could be playing the "nice teacher" card... haha.
A poem is due in L.A. on Friday, and I am kind of excited/nervous/uninspired. I haven't written any poems that have like... rules... So who knows what it will be like. Neither have I been graded on writing like this. Yikes! Oh well..
If it turns into anything worth reading I will post it...


Sunday, January 25, 2009

Sometimes I need to know that I'm not the only one.

{ I do not own this picture}


What is love?
Is it death?
Is it life?
Is is giving up?
Is it happiness?

I guess you just know... or maybe you don't always.

So many questions going through my mind.
I'm afraid of sounding stupid.
Why do I have to be so afraid?
Why do I care?

What is life?
I call it  a symphony of chaos, but it's not really chaos.
It's all decided.
It's not random at all.
The tiniest details to the biggest events, all planned out of love.